Riya, I wish you resilience, and thank you for your endeavors!
I suffer from BPD too, and want you to know: what you do matters!

Though I'm not sure about the answer to your question, lest helping you get a job, while struggling with it on my own, you may search the next materials and maybe seek advice there:

• "Psy for EA" Facebook group
• High-Impact Psychology
• EA Psychology Research
  • They'll have an Introductory Seminar for Early Career Researchers in early 2024.
  • Also, you can apply to work with them
• Go through Effective Thesis materials
  • Subscribe to their newsletter for job updates (and more) or look directly at their board
  • Apply for their coaching
  • Find
    • A supervisor
    • Funding
    • Thesis topics (1, 2)
    • Research agendas
    • etc.
• Subscribe to 80,000 Hours' job board and EA Opportunity Board
  • 80k's Mental Health problem profile
  • Apply for their coaching
• Look at Happier Lives Institute and their "Work with us" page / their recommendations / subscribe to their newsletter.
  
  Hope some of it helps!