God gave me hands, a nose, and Howard Taylor's Summary of the Humor Code. He also gave me a medium-large and very bookish family who was willing to let me spend a great deal of time on the internet.
Please imagine something for me. Who's the scariest, vilest, most unspeakably wicked person who could possibly be alive today?
Now, figure out what they want most in the world.
Now, tell me why they're settling for less.
If you're not satisfied with your answer, set a timer. Spend at least five real-world minutes on this. Prepare your brain with meatspace food (listen to your gut here), if that is what is required to give this the thought it deserves.
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If you've succeeded, congratulations! That's how real forgiveness works. Sleep well. :)