- Not wanting to move countries
(“there would be a lot more effective work options if I lived elsewhere”)
- Wanting a permanent work contract
(“there would be a lot more effective work options with temporary contracts or grant-based pay”)
- Not wanting to be an independent researcher
(“it could potentially be an effective thing to do, and I wouldn’t have to worry about replaceability”)
- Wanting to have a child
(“if I didn’t want one I’d probably be much more flexible on the points above”)
- Wanting to take some time off from work to take care of said child, in case I ever manage to have one
(“although if I’m not having an impactful job by that time it probably won’t matter much anyway”)
- Burning out
(“it wastes time and sets a bad example”)
- Feeling guilty about things
(“I have read Replacing Guilt but I’m still having all these unproductive feelings”)
(Despite feeling guilty I’m doing ok – ultimately, a lot of this is just sadness about not having an unlimited altruism budget. I wanted to post this because I like reading about others’ experiences and thought someone else might like reading about mine. I don’t really need solutions proposals but if you have some, other readers might benefit from them.)
I felt a lot of this when I was first getting involved in effective altruism. Two of the things that I think are most important and valuable in the EA mindset -- being aware of tradeoffs, and having an acute sense of how much needs to get done in the world and how much is being lost for a lack of resources to fix it -- can also make for a pretty intense flavor of guilt and obligation. These days I think of these core elements of an EA mindset as being pieces of mental technology that really would ideally be installed gradually alongside other pieces of mental technology which can support them and mitigate their worst effects and make them part of a full and flourishing life.
Those other pieces of technology, at least for me, are something like:
For me, this has taken a decade. I don't think I was particularly good at it, I don't know that I made all the right tradeoffs in doing it, and I hope it's faster and better for other people. But I do want people to know that there's a way of living your values that doesn't feel fueled by guilt, that it's possible to be an EA and have a life you just love, and that you should absolutely be aiming to be your strongest and best self rather than the version of yourself who sacrificed the most.
For me, I have:
Not wanting to donate more than 10%.
("There are people dying of malaria right now, and I could save them, and I'm not because...I want to preserve option value for the future? Pretty lame excuse there, Jay.")
Not being able to get beyond 20 or so highly productive hours per week.
("I'm never going to be at the top of my field working like that, and if impact is power-lawed, if I'm not at the top of my field, my impact is way less.")
Though to be fair, the latter was still a pressure before EA, there was just less reason to care because I was able to find work where I could do a competent job regardless, and I only cared about comfortably meeting expectations, not achieving maximum performance.
Over the years, I have talked to many very successful and productive people, and most do, in fact, not work more than 20 productive hours per week. If you have a job with meetings and low-effort tasks in between, it's easy to get to 40 hours plus. Every independent worker who measures hours of real mental effort is more in the 4-5 hours per day range. People who say otherwise tend to lie and change their numbers if you pressure them to get into the detail of what "counts as work" to them. It's a marathon, and if you get into that range every day, you'll do well.
I totally agree and I think EA should be less totalizing.
EA indirectly asks us to devalue our own direct communities in order to more effectively help others globally. For most people, this creates a big problem.
I want to see more focus on a version of EA for Normal People.
My experience: I’ve been living in the south of Japan for six years. It’s far from the most effective place to be. I gave up on being an independent researcher. I wanted financial stability and got a permanent work contract. If things go well, I’m going to have children soon. (Will MacAskill encourages people to have children in What We Owe the Future, by the way.) I don’t feel that guilty because I’m still a lot more effectively altruistic than the vast majority of people who would have the means.
I'm interested in building a career around technological risks. Sometimes, I think about all the problems we're facing. From biosecurity risks to AI safety risks to cybersecurity risks to ... And it all feels so big and pressing and hopeless and whatnot.
Clearly, me being existential about these issues wasn't helping anyone. So I've had to accept that I have to pick a smaller, very specific problem that my skillset could be useful in. Even if it's not solving everything, I won't solve anything if I don't specialise in that way.
Maybe some spirit of that could also apply to the altruistic actions I take in general? Ie. I have to start by going vegan OR setting up regular donations OR working towards a more flexible career OR thinking about whether I want kids OR ... I can't take on all those things at once.
I suppose the simple way I might remind myself of that is "Altruism requires one step at a time and not every altruistic person needs to generalise in all methods of being altruistic."