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Yeah that's fair. I mean I did give summaries, but it's still fair. If I could go back in time I would've posted that comment first and I would've tried to explain my emotions/reasoning process to the HBDers on this forum more.
I would have said: I get the allure of taboo studies. I want to be a moral philosopher, but moral philosophers are very smart and they don't get a lot of funding. So even if I work very very hard, I probably won't get to be one. I need a way to stand out, to make people notice I would be a good researcher... oh what's this? Everyone is avoiding these taboo studies. So researching them makes me both stand out and makes me a comparatively high quality researcher since almost no one is competing with me.
It's competition/capitalism/moloch that is driving me towards these subjects and even knowing this doesn't make the allure go away. But ultimately I care about people more, and there are often good reasons these taboo's were put in place.
Perhaps the readers of this comment feel the same way. I empathize. The smart thing to have done was unpack these mental prioritizations immediately instead of grabbing my research. But I didn't think of it, probably because I wanted to show that I could be a good researcher. Moloch got me. Please don't spend your limited time on this subject, please don't let moloch get you too.